Day 27 - Doubts

Hi all - still sick, and I will post about my blogger award tomorrow, but I just don't have the right energy today. Didn't manage a great workout today, but I did do one, so that's good. When I am sick, like so many others, I have a negative voice that is more prevelant in my mind which I would very much like to  SHUT UP! It's the one that sounds like a combination of every mean girl I have come across. She says to me:

• You will never. EVER. be skinny.
• You've always been FAT just accept it.
• You will never stick to anything.
• You will never make anything of yourself, cat lady.
• No man will ever love you.
• You're pathetic.
• I don't know why you even try, you know you will fail.
• Why aren't you just happy with you 9-5 job, you should be grateful and give up on your "dreams."

I really think these thoughts are a natural part of growth. When I was younger, I gave into these thoughts. I quit jobs, friendships, dreams and sadly I believed this voice in my head. Now that I am (older and) wiser I know that these thoughts stem from fear and doubt. When I don't worry about the future, I am happier. Who really knows what the future will bring? All I know is that I need to do everything I can today.

Here's to hoping we can all make that voice of doubt a little smaller today.